'Friends' Philosophy

One of the things Derek and I enjoy doing together is watching old episodes of Friends.  Working in television, Derek tends to take the whole experience to the next level, and while he thankfully spares me his thoughts on shot composition and lighting and blah blah blah, he does point out things I'd never notice, like how in one scene Mike's scarf goes from tied to untied about a dozen times each time the camera cuts away from him, or how one scene with Phoebe and Monica has some random dark haired girl standing in for Monica.  Once he pointed it out, I had no idea how I'd never noticed.  With me you get Friends 110, where I laugh at all the jokes I can recite by heart, and maybe even ruin it for you a bit by saying the punchline along with the character, which I'm sure isn't annoying at all.  With Derek you're taking the graduate level course because he's not as gentle as God- no, he will rip those scales from your eyes: "Hey, look, she's wearing a completely different outfit but it's still the same scene," and "Why is that guy in the background walking down the steps when a moment ago he was just entering the building?" and "Wow, that's not even Monica."  Somehow it's enjoyable, and will make you feel like you're now part of some kind of elite pool of Friends viewers, which is exactly as pathetic as it sounds.

In addition to Friends viewing, I find myself thinking about certain episodes way more than I should- such as the "There is no selfless good deed" episode.  In it, two of the characters argue over whether or not truly selfless good deeds exist.  One maintains they do, but can't think of any examples, and one says they don't, that there is a selfish component to every good deed, intentional or not.

I don't know why I think about that so much.  Perhaps because I do feel so good after doing so-called good deeds, which keeps them from being truly selfless.  I've agonized over this for years (seriously.  These still waters don't run so deep.), trying in vain to come up with a selfless good deed.

But finally, finally, I think I may have found one.


It was shortly before Christmas.  I had made it through the day, the children were finally in bed, Derek was at church helping with rehearsals for the Christmas program, and I had a nausea-inducing, crazy painful migraine.

I started getting migraines in my early twenties, and averaged about one a year for several years before having a glorious migraine-free streak that lasted around three years.  That streak was broken on this night, the night of the selfless good deed.

Now, when I have a migraine, I need utter darkness and total silence.  Basically I need an ibuprofen-stocked cave, but those are hard to come by, and pretty boring after awhile anyway.

So I was lying on the couch, my hands pressed hard on either side of my head (because sometimes that helps, too; someone needs to make a migraine vise), listening to Doctor Who; notwithstanding my need for silence and darkness, for some reason Doctor Who is comforting to me when I don't feel well.  I had my eyes closed and the volume was on low, but the blue light flickering through my eyelids was proving to be more than my head could handle, so I had just decided to turn it off and retreat to our bedroom when someone knocked on our front door.

Obviously it was the devil.  No one else has such impeccable timing.  (You didn't know the devil had great timing, did you?  Well he does.)

Shockingly, it was not the devil but a group of smiling tweens who promptly started screaming at me.  They did not stop for two full minutes.  And by "screaming" I mean "caroling."

That's right.  A group of well-meaning kids, led by two kind adults, had come to our house to sing one of my favorite Christmas songs, Oh Holy Night.

Being a native midwesterner- a species of beings whose niceness is rivaled only by Canadians, and who will stop at nothing to be as helpful and polite and kind to family and complete strangers alike, who, upon meeting someone from New Jersey who talked about his loud, raucous Italian family didn't believe him at first because she thought that stuff was made up for tv along with vegetarians and people who meditate- there was nothing to do but hope my painful grimace could pass for a grin and lean heavily on the front door for support.  I almost passed out.  Toward the end there was little silver confetti sprinkling itself across my vision; despite that, I managed what I hope was a genuine-sounding "Wow, thank you so much!  That was lovely!  Merry Christmas!"

Then I crawled upstairs and vomited.

A selfless good deed:  pretending to enjoy and be thankful for somebody else's good deed when in fact it makes you want to die.  I finally found one.  It was not worth it.

A List. For You. On Monday.

I'm tired.  I bet I know what will make me feel better:   A list!  (Obviously.)

• Derek got back from his annual ESPN Golf Extravaganza Saturday night.  No, it's not something sponsored by ESPN; it's a little vacation he takes to Florida each January with a bunch of his former ESPN co-workers where he gets to golf his big heart out.  I didn't mention it last week because... well, because I'm not crazy.  I'm not sure if you had noticed, but this blog exists on a little something called the internet, which means just about anyone can read it, which means advertising the fact that my husband isn't home is on par (geddit?) with draping our house in neon and issuing an invitation to home invaders everywhere to come pillage to their crooked souls' content.  NO THANK YOU.  Anyway, the kids and I survived the week- it's actually getting a lot easier the older they get, shocker- and he made it back home safely.  Derek and I have also discussed that in return, I'll get to go see my sisters and their families some three-day-weekend soon (which I just remembered I haven't talked to them about yet- Surprise and You're Welcome, Kelli and Steph!).

• Adelaide has a new love:  Checkers.  She's gotten to the point where she can beat the computer 10 times out of 12 on the Easy level, and I can only win against her by a increasingly-narrow margin.  This is partially due to the fact that she played a whole bunch with her Daddy over Christmas break, and he gave her helpful instructions like, "Strategize:  Always think at least two moves ahead."  Which she, of course, took to heart.  So when she plays me, who thinks about strategy for the first five moves but then gets bored with checkers and just wants it to be over as quickly as possible, I begin to seem like a less than worthy opponent.  I'm terrified Chess is next.

• I looked down at both Adelaide and Caedmon when we got to church yesterday and realized that there was a two- to three- inch gap between their socks and the hems of their pants, and the sleeves of their shirts ended far above the wrist.  They appear to be going through a growth spurt.  AGAIN.  (Who could ever have seen this coming?)

• Does anybody know what the story on Downton Abbey is?  I know it's a BBC show that I think airs on PBS around here, but what I want to know is:  What is with the obsession?  Is this something I should be watching?  Does anyone have any idea?

• I've started getting seed catalogs in the mail, which makes me anxious for spring.  (Only 5 more months 'til my final frost date!  Holy cow, that's depressing.)  I cannot wait to get back in my flower beds.  They look so sad right now, all blanketed in white, a few spindly pieces of brown spearing up through the snow here and there.  I keep telling myself the snow is good protection for all those bulbs I planted in the fall, and that hopefully these low temps will help kill off more bugs for this summer- particularly the Japanese Beetles.  

• I just started my Christmas Thank-You's today.  Does this make me a terrible person?  I'll just think of it as me doing my part to extend the holiday cheer well into the new year.  Yeah, that's it.